No One Converted Me

I've been thinking about some of the wording used to describe people who join a church.  The passive voice is rampant in these descriptions.  For example, Alma 19:31-32

And he immediately, seeing the contention among his people, went forth and began to rebuke them, and to teach them the words which he had heard from the mouth of Ammon; and as many as heard his words believed, and were converted unto the Lord.  But there were many among them who would not hear his words; therefore they went on their way.  

One major part for me in the wording of these verses is the phrase "were converted".  That makes it sound like conversion was something done to them. When I tell the story of my own conversion I tell it like I own it.  I say "I converted when I was eighteen", or "I chose this religion because...".  It was an active, educated decision I made because I felt God calling me home through the Book of Mormon and this faith.  I don't ever say it in the passive voice as, "I was converted the summer I turned seventeen".  I certainly never say it was my friends or the missionaries who converted me.  The year I waited to be baptized was rough, and no boyfriend or social group was worth what I went through to get to baptism.

I feel like thorough conversion is an active thing a person chooses to do (I converted), not something that is done to them (I was converted).  To maintain my conversion I am constantly repenting and choosing to believe, and neither of those things can be done for me by someone else. 

I also have the question in mind, "What are you converted to?"   The scriptures many times say that people were converted "unto the Lord".  I chose to convert to believing in the Lord.  I heard, I wanted to believe, I chose to convert to the church of Jesus Christ, to convert unto the Lord.  I did not convert to a social group, though that is certainly available through the church.  I did not convert to the lifestyle, though I do like it and I choose to live the word of wisdom by eating healthy and abstaining from alcohol, drugs, tea, and coffee. 

Romans 10:13-17
For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher?
And how shall they preach, except they be sent? as it is written, How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things!
But they have not all obeyed the gospel. For Esaias saith, Lord, who hath believed our report?
So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

I did not convert to the missionaries and I was not converted by the missionaries.  They were merely the conduit through which God gave me information about His church.  I converted to a relationship, with regular communication and guidance from God through the Holy Ghost, so I can better live my life and help others.  I have Christ as my example of how I want to live, healing and helping others.  But no one converted me.  I feel like God found me and called me home.